Well, life is getting a little bit better. I have slowly begun cutting back on the Vistaril. I am hoping by the time our vacation comes at the end of May that I'm off completely!! I've noticed that I'm not as tired as I was before. I actually have had some computer time!! I'm looking forward to my doctor visit on May 5. Tomorrow marks the beginning of Week 13, which is the beginning of the second trimester.

The worst day of this pregnancy BY FAR has just happened! I woke up this morning only to find that I was spotting. I freaked!! John called the doctor, who of course, wasn't at work yet. They told him they would page her and she should call within 20 minutes. We went through this 3 times and for the first time in my life, I saw every single minute tick away for an hour's time. It was not fun. I imagined every possible bad thing that I could imagine. Then I'd look at the picture of our son hanging on our bedroom wall and try to picture a little baby in the picture with him. I'd try to concentrate on good thoughts, but the bad ones kept coming back. Finally Lauren called me. She told me not to worry and to let her know if it stopped or if it continued. So I spent the day laying around trying not to worry. I finally called back at noon and begged for an appointment to hear the heartbeat. There was no way I could wait till May 5 after this had happened. So a little after 3:30, John and I heard the precious little beat of our Little Punkin's heart. It was a nice, strong 152, and I've been on a cloud ever since. There has been no more spotting and we are thankful that Little Punkin is going to be just fine!

My allergies have really been acting up. John called the doctor because my ears were hurting, nose stopped up, etc. I went on Amoxycillin to cure any infection that was in there. I also can now take 4 Vistaril every 6 hours, since I still feel sick ALL the time.

Finally! The first doctor's appointment! We were hoping to hear the baby's heartbeat, but they figured me as 9, almost 10 weeks, and the baby is still too small. My doctor tried, but it was just too quiet. So, we had a "regular" first visit, complete with all my favorite things... pap smear, drawing blood, and a urine sample. OH JOY! I am still staying on the Vistaril. It seems to be working pretty well. The next doctor's appointment is on May 5. I'm sure I'll be here to type again before then! :)

Ok, so I'm not exactly a new woman... John called for a refill on my prescription. He told Lauren that I had been using my medication early and asked if it was ok. Of course she said, "NO!" She said that meant it wasn't working. So now I'm on a new medication called Vistaril. It's pills, which is much better than the suppositories I was on. I have learned very quickly that you don't let the time on the medicine run out! INSTANT SICK!! This is not the most wonderful time in my life by any means, but as soon as I hold "Punkin" in my arms for the first time, I'll know it was all worth it!

Today was not a good day in the wonderful world of pregnancy. I woke up feeling sick. After I took a shower, I went to lay down. I just knew I could "shake" this sick thing! WRONG! I was miserable all day! After throwing up at home and at work both, I decided ENOUGH is ENOUGH! I called the doctor and asked for Phenergan. (Ok, I begged!) Luckily Lauren remembered my days of being pregnant with B and called in a prescription for me! I just know I'll be a new woman!

The sickness begins! I have felt awful most of the week. Tonight was the night I "lost my cookies" (so to speak). I can honestly say that I have never in my life thrown up and laughed at the same time. With a 21-month-old, I can't do anything without an audience. So there I sat in the bathroom floor with B right beside me. When he saw me lean over toward the toilet, he was fascinated. He leaned over the toilet and coughed and gagged a couple of times. I couldn't help laughing! He repeated his little imitation of me numerous times. I am so glad that I already have a little one in my life to entertain me. I wish that I felt like running and chasing him like I used to. He's adjusting well though. He still likes for me to read to him, so I know everything is going to be ok.

John gave the card to his parents. They are very happy too! This will be their fourth grandchild.

I bought two cards with a baby on the front of each. I put a little thank you from B to his grandparents for taking such good care of him. Inside I put "I know you will love my little brother or sister as much as you love me!" My parents were both happy. This will be their second grandchild. John's parents will find out tomorrow!

We decided not to take another test. The fact that I have been "crashing" at 8 p.m. pretty much gives it away. I haven't felt this tired since I was pregnant with B! I called the doctor's office today and my first appointment is on April 7. Now to tell the grandparents to be...

I took a home pregnancy test. One of the lines was really dark, but the other was really faint. We are going to wait a week or so and then probably take another test. We are very, very excited! I'll keep you updated on the details. :)